where life goes

Throughout my life, I've picked up so many hobbies and skills along the way. The one thing connecting it all is art. Writing, drawing, web and graphic design, coding, zine-making and so on. These different art forms allowed me to use my brain in different ways and in the process, be part of some of the most fun online communities. It comes as no surprise that I'm still creating art today (though, it was one bumpy journey!). Getting to draw, to design, and make things with my hands brings me back to my childhood, back when I loved making my own "books," creating objects with play-doh and so forth. It's all really a form a play in a way, but now as an adult.

And I think it's important for adults to remember to integrate play into their lives. We lose some of that childhood bliss as we age, as we face the complexities and hard realities of life. I remember feeling "too old" to still play video games and other things. I'd get lost scrolling on social media instead of making my own art, writing my own books. I felt like I had lost a part of myself. I had to re-integrate play back into my life so I could connect back to art like I once did.

Turning my art into a business was in some ways both easy and not easy. Not everyone should turn their art into a business, especially if you do it solely as a hobby on the side. I've always wanted to share my art with others, so to me, it made sense to start a business. While I was burned out and lacked inspiration at times, it didn't affect my views on my business. I have not felt unhappy at any point with my decision and journey. I think it's cool that I can make art while also earning money for it (which then allows me to continue doing what I do).

Frankly speaking, I feel like I still don't know what it really means to be an adult and what I'm really supposed to be doing. But for once in a long while, I don't feel completely unsure about my future. My life has a direction, and while it may be a little unstable, I feel positive about where I'm going.